Update Blog

i've updated some features in my blog (sapa yg rajin tgk mesti perasan kan..) mostly audio part..before this i put my fav song, but now i put my ehem2 fav song (dear..'tis song is special for u..best tak saya??)

Susah jugak nak carik lagu nih..tgh2 surf..terjumpe plak lagu nih..Anyway..enjoy!!

Artis : Ruffedge

Lagu : Bila Rindu

Di keheningan malam

Termenung ku berseorang

Tak lena mata dipejam

Terdengar suara terngiang

Suara merdu yang disayang

Bagai kau didepan mata

Ku capai tapi tak kena

Sukarnya memendam rasa

Ingin ku luahkan kata

Bila rindu

Terkenang mu sayang terasa sayu

Syahdunya jiwa ku bila malam makin kelam

Jauh terbang diri ku melayang

Aku rindu

Sentuhan mu, ku rasa sayu

Inginkan jiwa mu selubungi jiwa ini

Bawa ku dalam pelangi

Melepasi batas diri ini.

Jauh angan ku lena

Ku rasa kita bersama

Kau bawa daku ke sana

Ke alam kisah yang lama

Kenangan di dalam jiwa

Bila tersedar semula

Disisiku kau tiada

Sukarnya ku pendam rasa

Inginku luahkan semua

Sesungguhnya kita mestilah

Wujudkan sefahaman dan hormat menghormati

Ikhlas kasih

Sabar insyAllah kita akan

Bertemu semula

Aura yang memecah semesta

Menyampaikan pesan kesunyian dikala sendirian

Kesepian menyelubungi hari-hariku

Disajikan dalam doa-doa rindu

Yang menanti kau datang dan pergi

Seperti mimpi-mimpiku fantasiku

Bukan dongeng lagi yang sayup kedengaran

Disisi cuping di setiap corong

Lorong yang lohong

Benar ku tak bohong

Bila hati menyanyi

FIRST TIME FIRST IN MY LIFE

I went home on Friday eve after worked at Melaka campus, means that away for a 3 days from him. It's quite berat hati to leave him alone here, but therefore I need a time for my family also laa kan.The nite before, we spent time together, having dinner at our fav place ( and terkantoi dengan abg Joe and his wife...malunyerrr) and borak2 for a few hours before he sent me home.

The first few hours away from him agak ok jugak, but then i'm started to miss him a lot. Sent a lot of sms (although i knew my dearest so lazy to sms), and called him in the middle of the night. Camnih ker rasa org berchenta ek??Never felt like tis before...hurmm

It's so tiring spent a day at home with nobody (except my bro yg asik maen game ajer), i slept that evening for a few hours (seb baik tak terlepas zuhur)..and woke up with nobody at the hall(coz everybody is sleeping at that time). Seb baik mak balik cepat from kenduri, so i could spent time with her for a few minutes before ayah woke up and take away mak from me...so sad..sob sob sob :(( . As usual, diorang pon nak dating jugak kan???)

My dear called me again in the middle of the nite and we had a few stories to share each other( sorry aaa..takleh bitau korang..rahsiaaa) :P. And i can't hardly wait for tomorrow to see him at KL.

I went back to KL on Sunday eve . While waiting for the bus, i met 2 old frens ( geng SMKDMT dulu...Thava and Lee Wei)..a lot of stories to share..until the bus came and took me away from them.

Highway jammmeddd!!!busan sungguh dalam bas. I tried to sleep, but just for a while. Tried to read a mag, but can't focus. Dunno why. The bus was so slowed.Busan..busan.

Reach KL almost at 6.30pm..and as usual teringat nak naik bas lagi satu ke Cyber. Seb baik my dearest called by the time i reached Pudu. Kalau tak mesti dia tertunggu2 sorang2.Sian dear.

I felt so nervous by the time i saw him. Goshhh!!Dunno wat to do. The first sentence came out from my mouth " Awak sihat???" Gosh againn..of course he did! i asked him already that morning. aiyakkkk!!!!felt sumthing bang on my head at that time..

Rasa cam pelik plak ade org jemput balik dr rumah. Mmg tak pernah org jemput aku kat KL, and this is my first experience, rasa cam pelik sangat2 laa plak. But somehow, felt so appreciated and to be loved by him (heheheh...). I hope next time, i still know how to take a bus from Pudu to Cyber , ye dear??

Happy Birthday to Our Dearest Atie :)
May God bless you

Hugs & Kisses :
Kak Aini & Auni

Happy 23rd Birthday to me....

I'm 23rd today!!! I'm a big girl now, no more childish attitude in me (I hope)...

Having a though I will celebrate it alone (like the other years)..since my dearest was so tired and no excuse to ask him out , I just slept after read a novel (merajuk laa kununnyer nih...bawak hati yg lara). Sharp 12 o'clock, still sleeping (dreaming actually)...heard someone opened my door. Thought it was Nanee, I just ignore it. Suddenly, heard the birthday song sang by all my housemate, terkejut terbangak-bangak (bak kate Nanee). With the sleepy face and my blanket still on me, bangun laa jugak. It was so dark and I only saw the candle lights and they bring it down to me. So touching while blowing the candles. So we having fun while eating the cakes..siap main calit2 lagi..abisss muke.And also got my second present from Nency...the cute tiger...so cute...

My dearest called me at 12.20 (since he is so tired...sian dear) with his sweet message. Tp rasa merajuk jugak sbb he is not the first person who wish me. But it's ok as long he still remembered my sweet day. Dear...i know u'd blamed urself for the late wish, but it's ok. I know u're tired and i know u waited for so long for that moment but something happen that u can't avoid it. Thank you so much for the wish....

Came to the office..and the first person at the office wish me is Tina. As usual, mesti jerit kat telinga aku. Mmg hantu punyer budak. Mmg saje dia tak sms wish aku mlm tadi sbb nak surprise kan aku. Sayang kat Tina.

My dearest called me again at 9.30 am (that is the time i was born)..and plus his sweet sms. Thanks dear.Love u so much.

Received a lot of msg and emails from a frens for my 23rd befday. Mimie and Cik Eta came to my office for special delivery from them, a card and a nice brooch. Halemaakk..seronok gilerrr

Mak and Ayah called to wish me. Ingat jugak diorang befday aku tahun nih. surprised sangat.

At 5.05 pm, by the time I cleared my table, Kak Yang told me that En Sam called me since he was so lazy to come to me. Dengan busannyer, aku pon kluar opis, then En Sam lambai aku. He asked me to look at his back, Oh My God!!!! A cakeeeee!!! My second cakes. All my officemate sang a befday song...so touchable. Rasa terharu. And i know sapa punyer keje nih...tak lain tak bukan mesti Tina. Sedap je hiding blakang dinding. Hantu betol. Seronok sangat dapat celebrate ngan diorang. So surprised bila Abg Fuad bawak anak angkat aku, Imal datang opis...Rindu sangat2 kat diaaa...Terus amik dia dan suapkan kek kat mulut dia..sayang sangat kat Imal.

Can't hardly wait for tonite. My dearest promised me to celebrate alone with me. Walaupon masih merajuk dengan dia, tp sbb sayang, tak kesah laaa..Sian gak kat dia. Tak sabar sangat2 nak jumpe my dear.And i dun know what to wear...help meee!!!!!

I would like to send my gratitude to all my housemates (Nanee, Nency, Fathiah n Wawa) for the unsangkarable surprised with the cute present, My boss (Pn Noraini) for the wish, Tina and all the colleagues for the song, the cakes and the joy i shared wif them this evening, Kak Yang and abg Fuad for brought Imal for me, Zana for the call and present, Ustaz Nazri for the present, Mimie and Cik Eta for the card and lovely present , Naj and Sha for the wish , Abg Joe yg sabar pujuk aku on behalf of my dearest and all frens who never forgets my befday...and specially thanks to my dearest for the calls and wishes.

I'm 23rd now...hoyeeee (never feel so happy like this since i hate being 20's ). InsyaAllah, i would never forget this befday since a lot of surprised happen to me today.

Can't hardly wait for tonite!!!!

The perfect guy

Yesterday....!!!!What a wonderful day, yesterday. Went out yesterday with my dearest to KL for the first time (sbb selalunyer date kat tempat faveret dia jer...eheh..jgn marah ye dear). Memula tu rasa tak berapa selesa sbb tak pernah lagi kuar berdua ke KL...selalunya kalau tak sorang mesti ngan member2.Rasa lain macam jugak memula tu..ye laaa tak biasa. But my dearest pandai ambil hati, so rasa makin comfortable kluar dengan dia. Tunggu dia lama kat rumah, tp salah aku jugak sbb lambat mandi, so dia kluar dr rumah pon lambat laa..Rasa cam dah panas jer memula tu. Almaklumlaa..tak suke menunggu org. Tp bila nampak jer my dear senyum, terus sejuk.

We went by public transport sbb my dear kata dia tak pernah lagi naik public transport since he has a car. So ape lagi..mmg faveret aku pon kalau pegi KL senang naik public transport jer. Rimas dengan jammed, traffic semua. Panas plak tu. Seb baik my dear faham perangai aku.Agak sabar jugak dia nih bila tgk.

Got so many people at KLCC..so aku dah naik rimas and we went back after Zohor. Then we went to SOGO for lunch. Yang seronoknyer kat SOGO tu sbb aku terjumpe sling bag idaman aku..then ade sale plak..so affordable laaa..Sian my dear..terpaksa temankan aku. Sorry yer dear. Hurm...kire dear pon perancang yang bagus. Suh aku pk byk kali jugak sblm aku beli bag tu..tp sbb aku dah mmg giler sangat nak bag tu, dia pon dah surrender dah ..(surrender ker dear???ehhehe). After SOGO, Midvalley plak..uhuh..tak pernahnyer aku marathon mcm tu skalik. Frustrated sangat sbb sport shoes yg aku nak tadek...seb baik dear pandai pujuk. Pastu dear pon pilihkan sandal plak sbb kaki aku dah naik sakit pakai sandal yg aku pakai masa tu...sama taste jugak rupanya my dear nih.Nih yg buat lagi sayang nih.

Having dinner at some place (rahsia...), sangat byk mkn + 2 pieces of Secret Recipe's cakes. Burrpp...kenyang sungguh. My dear pon terkejut tgk aku mkn mcm tu skalik... My dear asik tgk jer aku mkn..pelik kot tgk org perempuan leh mkn byk camtu...Sorry laa dear. Tak reti kontrol kalau bab mkn.

Mmg rasa happy sangat2 kluar dengan my dear smalam. So patientttt!!!Tatau camner dia bleh sabar ngan aku. Thanks yer dear sbb tahan dengan kerenah saya. U're such a perfect guy for me!My biggest fear is losing him. He is the only person that has loved me for me and not what I look like. He is the only person that makes me feel like I belong. I love everything he does.

Today : 5 lessons when in love

While having a conversation with a fren ( kawan aku yg paling giler kat opis), she taught me a few lessons when we're in love. Aku rasa nih laa lesson paling giler penah aku dengar. However, masuk akal jugak ape yg dia ajar aku.

Lesson 1 : Tayah merajuk sbb tadek org nak pujuk

because my dearest mmg tak reti langsung nak pujuk aku time aku merajuk, so paling bagos tayah merajuk langsung. Tina kate, buat dek jerrr.....

Lessons 2: Kawen jer bila dah rasa angau sangat

Yang nih mmg aku takleh nak ikut laaa..sbb aku belum ke tahap angau giler...tp tatau laa my dearest camner...(awak, awak dah angau sangat kerr??belom lg kan?)

Lessons 3 : Don't get married until u're ready to do so

Sbb si Tina sibuk sangat suh aku kawen , aku kate tunggu dia beranak 2 dulu ( ye laaa...kene laa dulukan kakak. Kang kate langkah bendul plaks). Dia kate mlm kang dia carik tok kadi, nikahkan dia, pastu dia suh aku kawen. Bila aku dah kawen, dia nak ceraikan hubby dia minggu depan...Terukkan perempuan tuh....Ntah hape2 si Tina nih. Giler betol.

Lessons 4 : Hati2 sblm kawen

Tina kate selalunya lelaki nih sayang giler kat kite sblm kawen jer. Semua bende kite nak, mesti dia kasik nyer. Tp lepas kawen, dia dah tak kesah dah kat kite. Nak manje2 pon dah tak dapat dah. Pastu kalau buleh, nak letak kite kat rumah jadik brg hiasan supaya org lain takleh nampak. Paling tercabar bile awek dia kene kebas org. (Betolker ape Tina cakap ni , awak??Camtu awak takleh aaa nak manjekan saya lagi).

Lessons 5 : Jgn jadik mangsa Buli( mcm citer "Buli: Hidup Jgn Jadi Mangsa" tu)

Bila kite dah ade companion nih, katenyer kite kene keras sket. Kalau kite asik berlembut jer, partner kite tu suke buli kite. Susah laa kite nanti. Itu yg ape Tina kate....aku tak terkate ape2 pon...


Sekian lesson utk hari nih. Tina belom ajar lagi lesson yg seterusnya. Esok2 dia ajar lagi....

I've uploaded some pic's taken from yesterday's gathering..check it out in my gallery... 

Hurm..such a long time since my last post. Quite bz with my daily job and my extra activities. Although it's quite tiring on the next morning, i felt so happy and never been happy like this before.

Last Saturday, he confessed to me that he loves me so much. sssoooo touchingg.. cause nobody confessed to me like he did. His love is so truthful and sincere eventhough he knew that i still can't love him so much like what he did. I felt so comfortable since i knew him and he shows me what loves is. He always respect me as a woman and makes me appreciate myself.

For my dearest...I know u sacrificed a lot for me, so patient for me, and loves me so much even u know i can't promise u that i can love u in return, but u still want to wait for me until I can express those three magic words. Just give me some times and i will never let u down.

Brown Eyes

Remember the first day when I saw your face

remember the first day when you smiled at me

you stepped to me and then you said to me

I was the woman you dreamed about

Remember the first day when you called my house

remember the first day when you took me out

we had butterflies

although we tried to hide it

and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand

the way we talked

the way we laughed

it felt so good to find true love

I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so

I know that he loves me cause his feelings show

when he stares at me you see he cares for me

you see how he is so deep in love

I know that he loves me cause its obvious

I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts

and he's missing me if he's not kissing me

and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed

remember the first day we had an argument

we apologized and then we compromised

and we haven't argued since

Remember the first day we stopped playing games

remember the first day you fell in love with me

it felt so good for you to say those words

cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand

the way we talked the way we laughed

it felt so good to fall in love

and I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so

I know that he loves me cause his feelings show

when he stares at me you see he cares for me

you see how he is so deep in love

I know that he loves me cause its obvious

I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts

and he's missing me if he's not kissing me

and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life

and baby now that you're a part of me

you showed me showed me the true meaning of love

and i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so

I know that he loves me cause his feelings show

when he stares at me you see he cares for me

you see how he is so deep in love

I know that he loves me cause its obvious

I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts

and he's missing me if he's not kissing me

and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul

Thank you so much for loving me and care for me....

Open House R0002

Semalam aku n housemates buat open house. Kebetulan plak aku mmg cuti. Saje2 nak berehat sket, dah terlanjur tu bleh laa buat mkn2 sket utk kawan2. Everything is first for the time yesterday. Cuak jugak nak kasik org mkn, ye laa, aku pon tak penah masak2 sblm nih. Itupon, belajar dari mak melalui telefon jer. Mana laa tau tak sedap ker. Malu jer nanti. Alhamdulillah, menjadik jugak mee kari n kuah kacang aku (kuah kacang nih pon last menet sbb teringat ade mak buyung nak sangat mkn kuah kacang). And again, Alhamdulillah, thank to Allah. Everything is ok and went smoothly yesterday. My cook also yummyy!!!(that's what they said to me! :p)

Blom pon start lagi, Kak Ju and hubby sampai. Kelam kabut jugak laa masa tu. Seb baik everything dah siap. Cuma tinggal aku je yg belum siap (dalam kata lain, belom mandi lagi). Seb baik couples tu pandai bawak diri . Abg Suhairi pon ade keje kol 5, kene laa datang cepat. Kak Ju pon suh aku mandi sblm dak2 Penen (Finance) sampai.Kak Ju pon mmg nak tunggu dak2 nih sampai dulu baru mkn.

Baru jer duduk borak2 ngan kak Ju, diorang sampai. Cam biasa, org Penen yang pertama sampai mestilah mak buyung n hubby (bf aku imal pon ade gak). Makin comel si imal. Geram aku tgk. Seb baik laa dia dah manja ngan aku, tadek laa dia kacau mak ayah dia mkn. Senyap jer kat aku. Aku pon dah naik sayang dah ngan si kecik tu. Rasa cam anak sendiri plaks.Then, sampai laa yang lelain. Isk..mmg cuaks giler masa tu. Ape laa rasa mknn yg aku masak tu.Satu jer tak menjadik, Puding Jagung!Segan aku nak kuarkan. Mana nak jadiknyer, aku blajar kat internet. Amik resipi kat situ, tak jadik laaa. Kalau dr mak aku, sure jadik nyer.Mmg riuh jugak laa smalam. Seronok plak rasa. Kak Z pon datang smalam ngan baby dia. Comel jek.

Lepas diorang balik, ape lagi. Aku terus tido laaa.Dapat laa selelap. Lepas solat maghrib, dah start ramai balik. Kengkawan nanee n nencie datang belah mlm. Ade gak kengkawan aku dr department lain datang. Ramai jugak laaa.Tak lama lepas tu, member lama aku masa keje Maybank, Kamal sampai. Waaa..makin hensem dia . Bergaya dengan kete baru plaks tu. Dah start pakai spek. Dulu masa aku kje ngan dia, tak penah lak nampak dia pakai spek. Makin smart dia. Then, Abg Azhar datang dengan baju biru n kete honda biru dia. Maklum lerr..faveret kaler dia. Blom sempat nak borak2 dengan Kamal n Abg Azhar, abg Is n Bai dah call, dah sampai. Pegi plaks menjemput diorang kat luar. Abg is pon dah berkereta baru. Maklum ler, FE yang berjaya. Bai mcm dulu gaks, still smart with his new job. Dan seperti biasa abg Is dan Bai mengenakan aku. Kureng betol. Sakit perut kitorang ketawa. Bila dah join dengan Kamal skalik, havoc aaa. Bai plak , mcm dulu, tak habis2 proud dengan aku. Semua bende aku cakap, mesti quote. Pastu proud. Kelakar giler mamat tu. Seronok aaa, dapat jumpe dak2 tu. Rindu giler ngan diroang n the other frens masa kat Maybank. Sayang sangat, kak Iza tak pat datang. Kalau dia ade sure lagi havoc.

Mmg ramai giler smalam. Seronok plak rasa. Walaupon penat cam nak pengsan, tp best!!Fahmi pon datang jugak lepas kelas. Tp kesian dia, tak pat layan dia. Rasa bersalah plak kat dia. Dak2 Maybank tu after aku left the bank, mmg tak jumpe langsung. Ade takder, terserempak ngan abg Is, Kamal, Bai, Mus n Zali kat MidValley. Tp xpat borak panjang aaa.Mmg seronok sangat ngan diorang. Teringat lagi , tiap2 petang after keje, diorang, aku, kak Iza, Shasha n Sue turun main volley kat court. Pastu mlm2 sneak out pergi supper. Giler betol masa tu.Skang nih, masing2 dah jadik org korporat. Masing2 sales mmg giler power, terutama Sue aaa. Dengarnye dia lead zone Selangor. Minah tu mmg hebat. Sekejap jer dia dapat customer. Ape ilmu ntah dia pakai. Yg tak menjadik nyer aku jer. Kalau ler aku stay kat Maybank lagi, gaji mmg sedap giler aaa... elaun lagi. OT siap. Belom masuk elaun entertainment. Commission on sales pon best!Tp dah keje tu tak suit ngan jiwa aku, bukan rezeki aku laa kat situ.

Tp smalam yg paling aku kelakar sangat tu, nasi himpit aku hangos. Mmg lawak giler. Penat aku masak dr kol 3 pagi, dah nak masak, dah siap keje2 kat dapur, aku pon baring laa kjap kat depan sbb pinggang dah sakit. Kununnyer nak baring kjap jer. Ntah camner aku tertido. Tersedar kol 5.30 pg, tetiba bau hanget. Tgk2 nasik aku dah jadik arang. Dengan periuk2 skalik hitam. Hawau betol. Satu pekerjaan plak aku nak menyental periuk pagi tu. Seb baik tak ape2. Kelakar pon ader, cuak pon ader.

Again, thank to Allah to allow everything went smoothly yesterday. Rasa cam nak wat sekali lagi jerr...ehehheh